Hi Missy - please don`t apolise for having a moan, this is such a good place to say how you feel and get things off your chest.  We understand what it`s like!  You amaze me how well you`re coping with your kids while on tx, as if it`s not difficult enough.  You sound like a great mum, so be kind to yourself and don`t even dream of beating yourself up!

I`m totally with you on the phone thing, it was driving me mad until it occured to me one day to just unplug the damn thing, lol.

Take care, this won`t last for ever.  lots love, Jill xxx

Hi Missy,

     I'm glad to hear you're feeling a bit better, some of those days can be real down.  Don't worry about complaining on here, EVERYONE knows exactly how you feel.  I didn't type in yesterday because I took Buster for an pretty long walk and by the time we got home I was so brain fogged I couldn't think!

     I understand how you feel about the mornings.  I used to wake up at four-thirty every morning and now I crawl out of bed at seven-thirty or eight!  It must have something to do with wanting the days to be a little shorter on tx...

     The others are right about the quiet time.  I am really enjoying the oatmeal baths!  I hadn't taken a bath since I was in the UK and I didn't realize how relaxing it is.  I've always been in too much of a hurry in the past.   You are right about the music, it helps take you out of this world. 

     Have fun at that party!  Take care, ty

Thank you guy so much for your pick me up :)

feel bit beter today cause iv decided to take the pressure off myself,im sat on the sofa typing this listening to my new cd,and any thoughts that are popping in my head soon leave cause im feeling foggy brain today hhahahaha, yep lesley my kids at school but thy break up today,i find it hard to get up and going in the morning so looking forward to just pottering around. i got up at 8 today thinking it was 7,so my littlen was late for school oh dear.

my nurse gave me a info sheet of a support programme called twentyfour7,i joined it but everything that was on the site i already new or had read on here.this site is by far the best amazing people.I think its a goverment thing not sure tho`

Elizabeth thank you i always keep in mind something else you said to me in another post (and im sure it will help others) GO WITH THE FLOW!!! so so true...the times when i just want to be quite and theres no chance i tell myself that,it helps the time go by faster rather than moaning to myself lol.... yh Randy i think il just take a leaf out of your book and un plug forever,its just the fact im not sure who it is how long they will chat....

Greg how lovely of you that is a wonderful song :))) its certainly one i will remember and in years to come it will remind me of how far iv come,music does that to you doesnt it.

um so looking forward to couple of days of feeling well before shot 7 getting there thanks again guys for taking the time to write as you know is a real helpxxxxx

oh by the way sorted my littlens party mums now have the correct time lol im so blonde hahahaha.xx

Hi Kaz,

Sorry to hear that your feeling low. The pampering time that Lesley spoke about sounds good if you can manage it. Try and treat yourself to some me time if you can, good advice from Elizabeth.

Thinking of you hope you feel better very soon.

Greg

PS a song for Kaz:

-- Edited by Greg on Friday 8th of April 2011 07:22:59 AM

Hi Kaz,  
I also think you picked a good place for a moan. I hear you about the phone thing, I never answer my home phone anymore since I got the cellphone. It's always solisitors and the like. I plan to have it unhooked but just haven't yet.  My luck, a solar flare will knock out the satellites or something the minute after I have it unhooked, ha!.

Sorry you're having one of those rough days but glad to hear that your kids are being so good through all of this, that has to help.

Take care,

Randy

Missy

best place here for a moan...do it when ever you need to..having suffered from that worry & angst thing on tx myself i understand how debilitating it can be.I hope it helps to let it out to the people here , dont be shy ....we all are here to support each other .

I am so glad to hear that your kids are not a problem they sound very happy and well adjusted .i would grab onto that and say what a good mum i am !!!!!!!!..try to remind yourself of the positives and your great achievement so far on the tx journey and how many weeks you have already done ..it wont last forever.

It will be worth it Missy.i really don't mean to trivialise it must be so hard doing tx with kids.it is hard enough as it is .

I found i had to set up the bedroom in a total quiet space books, (not that i could read anyway maybe ones with just pictures ..Lol) laptop , darkish, quiet ,NO phone, me space ..maybe you could talk to the kids about this , a kind of retreat room ..you prob done all of this already ..just saying don't be surprised if you become quite accustomed to it ..hey any strategy that works ..don't feel bad about it is what i mean.

i found that anything to do with water worked for me,when i was desperate a shower or bath helped my mind.the worry was insane its just the drugs .Hey you are doing a brilliant job.

you may feel weak but i think you are being very brave...thinking of you lots of love elizabeth

ps..and dont worry about the sun out there it will still be there when you are well xx
-- Edited by bethland on Thursday 7th of April 2011 07:56:07 PM

Hi Kaz, sorry you're havin a rough day.

Hope tomorrow will be much brighter for you.

I used to feel very irritable I would try to chill on the couch, read or listen to some soothing music. But you have the children to take care of. Are they at school during the day? if so, thats when you shud have some ME time have a nice relaxing soak in the bath. Pamper yourself. Eat something you really like

I hope you have some support  & help during this trying time as its hard  to deal with single handed.

Hope you feel better soon.

Lots Luv Lesley xx

oh im going to have a moan,iv not been able to shake off this awful mood today,everything is bugging me the phone,people grrrr,every seems to be in a good mood cause the sun is out and im annoyed with myself that im not happy!!!iv tried loads to get out of it,its my 3 day from shot day and i normally feel bit crappy,my legs feel like they being weighted down,but this morning i couldnt sit in again id of gone mad, so i went for a walk to sit in the grave yard(not in a doom & glome way) just its so peacefull and has sea views you cant see any roads or people, that really helped for a while,but then i carried on walking and over did it.....now im knacked.

lucky my kids dont annoy me at all! i was scared before starting tx that i would get moody with them but i dont.if anything they just help me,its just the stress`s of life i cant deal with,i booked my daughters birthday party and gave out the wrong bloody time so i was really worring about that.but i shouldnt its easily fixed.worry worry worry.

im sorry to go on just had to get it out,feel like going to bed and staying there,but i cant not yet anyway got to do dinner get little one in bath sort school stuff,but again thats ok.i dont mind that.i just HATE feeling like this and want to be happy happy happy.....

im going to buy a cheap mobile phone you can pick them up for £10,and only give the number to few people in case thy need me and unplug the other one driving me potty....

il most likely regret posting this tomorrow when i feel better,but just needed to get it out.....

xxxx oh poo i posted it in wrong bit sorry