Hi everybody, 

I also have Riba rage but I realized that in certain situations it can be beneficial. Now I don't put up with or tolerate some things that I would have before treatment...and perhaps I shouldn't have tolerated all along. I'm not saying I like it. Nope. I'm irritable, grumpy, and be a general a**hole. And at times I've felt panic. But there are some benefits to the sensation.

Hey Taz,

I have an extra tub sitting in the back yard--none in the house yet.  At least I have a couple of window a/c's.  I have hung shower curtains for interior walls so the cool air is in two areas. 

SuziQ

The Poem was spot on..

It is just wonderful to have ppl to understand. so this part of social media i love.. like u guys..

oh & got a bee sting on right hand on top of it yesterday. hurt like heck all night. now my new perfume is skoal on my hand with freaking office tape trying to hold it on. Life does SO suck sometimes.. lol  but glad i am living it.

yep. i will be glad to know if this crap worked. doing the  12 weeks & no test.. I am about to start just crying here at work. i am sooooooo tired of waiting. i know. i will know by friday. but damnnnn.. i am getting impatient again. being broke all the freaking time now, working my butt off in office & fraking house is a wreck. i want to go to talladega in the fall for the NASCAR race.  but we can't go anymore. my mom's back is real bad, no money & my back is crappy too. god. calgon take me away. oh i forgot, can't yet, got to get bagthrub replaced.  see???  lol  son in law will get that for me in a couple of weeks. geezzzzzz........ not peace out this time just OUT!! 

Taz

Thank you Debra! That was very good and very accurate... After nearly 8 months, I still deal with these issues. Hopefully soon this drug will be unnecessary with any protocol. It's difficult to deal with the virus itself, and we shouldn't have to fight the effects of the cure at the same time. 

Tig

Thanks Scruff...I know that must have been rough, but look at you...you persevered and did what you had to do. We are a strong bunch. Suziq...the same is true for me. I am usually a patient, warm and kind individual. I have become impatient and intolerant. I am starting week 12 today on a 24 week regimen. I decided to write a poem, which is what I usually do when I'm troubled. I hope you all enjoy.

 THE RIBA RAGE

This riba rage

Is gettin' me down

My face is now

Adorned with a frown

The joy that once

Lived inside

Has taken a hiatus

And said goodbye

The positive words

That used to flow

Have said Uh Uh

We've got to go

The sense of confidence

That I once knew

Has packed  its bags

And flew the coop too

The warmth that once

Attracted so many

Has turned to ice

It is rather scary

The hallmark of my life

Has been my heart

But it too has taken flight

And fallen apart

Being aware

Of all these things

Makes my heart cry

And not want to sing

But even with

This going on

I seem to find hope

In the Book of John

So even though I whine

And cry a few lines

I never give up

It's not my style

I get into the ring

I fight my best fight

For the opportunity

To live my best life

Like Bozo The Clown

I won't stay down

I persevere

My feet on the ground

I'll win this fight

Like many before

With eyes sparkling

I come through the door

The door of healing

That I walk through

Wearing a wide smile

From here in Brooklyn to Timbuktu

So when the riba rages

And I want to scream

I must remember

This is part of the deal

There's nothing thats perfect

There's a flaw in everything

These wisdoms I've learned

On my dramatic journey

So these words

Are for me and for you

My warrior soldiers

We'll make it through.

Have a great day!

© 2014 DAJenkins aka ThePoet

I am wondering when the effects of riba goes away.  It has been six months since my last pill and I still get very agitated--something I have rarely been in all my years.  I do have a lot of things to deal with right now, but my usual optimism just isn't taking over. I'm just hoping this period of chaos is soon over.  On the bright side, we had a day with a high of 77 degrees in mid July in Texas. I have not gotten over my dislike of the humidity here in Texas after years in California.  And, this year the mosquitos are big as flies with all the rain.   

SuziQ  

Hiya's thepoet

Yep thats the riba. I went through 48 weeks of it while I took care of my 83 yr. Mom asking me the same questions over and over. I HAD to learn the skills to deal with the riba. Every time I felt the rage before I did or said some thing I would try to remember myself pre tx and put my state of mind back there.

I seem to be in a constant weird state of mind. I'm usually so positive and persevere through anything. However, I am waking up with this frustrated sense of mind. Life challenges that are usually a piece of cake now have me baffled. I feel like a little girl who wants to pick up my toys and run home to my mother. When I'm in church I feel great or when I'm at an AA meeting, but even when I'm dealing with my therapist, I feel this sense of distrust towards her. Where I usually give everyone the benefit of the doubt, I am now doubting their capabilities. It is a weird somewhat hostile worldview that I now have. I suppose the more this medicine is concentrated in my body, the worse this will get. HELP! HELP! HELP! Someone give me some wisdom.

The rage is in full bloom this way too. My alarm that tells me it is time to take my meds pisses me off! LOL!! My brain feels so jacked up right now, I am starting to irritate myself. 

I was so excited when I realized it was Wednesday and Law & Order SVU is on! Waited until about 9:30 to go watch it (so I could fast forward through commercials) ... get into the living room, can't for the life of me figure out why the dish won't turn on... got off the couch to do it manually, still nothing. Realize the stupid receiver is unplugged. I don't watch tv often (netflix instead), I usually let my shows build up on DVR and then watch them. I know the dish was plugged in 2 weeks ago as I watched the last episode of SVU. I can feel the rage building immediately; there's no room in the surge protector; I KNOW this this was plugged in. I follow the mess of wires back and realize my fiance unplugged the dish receiver to plug something of his in instead of getting a new surge protector. So now I have to figure out what I can unplug that's not gonna mess his stuff up - finally plug the thing back in, turn it on - realize the DVR isn't recording my show because it was unplugged... Now its 40 minutes into the show at this point and I don't even have it to watch on DVR later. I could literally feel my blood boiling and I felt like there were those little angle and devils sitting on my shoulders.... the devil going off about the fact the receiver was unplugged and the angel telling me that it's just the meds. Was definitely one of those moments where I felt within seconds, the desire to put my fist through the wall and smash all of the electronics in the living room; however at the very same time being entirely aware of how unreasonable I was being! I think that made me angrier and one of those evil "not hydrated enough" headaches has begun.

On the bright side... I could see the bottom of my Riba bottle this evening. For those of you who also have had the pleasure of the 168 tablet bottles instead of the packs; you understand how never ending that bottle seems... It's like you're never getting anywhere with it, no matter how many days you have left. So I was excited to see the bottom... 5 days to go!

Keep it real everyone!