Hey guys,

Thank you all so much for your support. Hey Scruff, there's a Daytop on 41st St in Manhattan. They, along with Phoenix House are still alive and kicking LOL. Milliganus, I'm about to watch a free Prime movie about CS Lewis. I've always heard much about him and Spurgeon from my pastor, but haven't heard of Tozer. Grouper, you're great, thanks much. Well I hope I have more success sleeping tonight. God bless you guys.

Hold fast to the Faith. He will get you through. 

Hi Poet,

I've been blessed with pretty good sleep while on my trial, but I do have my moments.  I've been reading Tozer and Spurgeon in the wee hours.  Sounds like you're a "double winner".  Me too and feeling grateful.  May His peace cover you, your mom, and others during this tough time.

Marcy

Hiya Poet

When I was on tx if I had anything on my mind that agitated or worried me I could not sleep. I think its the riba. Finding out about your Mom would do that. Lots on your plate now. Best wishes and a talk with the big guy for you.

Wow Alanon. I haven't heard that in a long time. Thats back there with Daytop.

Try to clear you mind before bed.

Tig,

Thanks so much. I finally did fall asleep around 4:30am and got up at 8 and made it to church on time and to the women's AA meeting at 1pm. I am now filled with the Holy spirit and the peace that comes with it. You are right about taking care of myself, so I'm going to find out what I need to do to continue working toward my CASAC while I'm in SC. I met a nice group of people the last time I was down there at an Alanon meeting. I will make sure I take numbers from fellowship people here as well. I'll be losing my therapist, who is really good and my church. However, I'll definitely be coming back to NY to visit my church and fellowship people. I'm glad to know that I also have you guys . Well my evening is now free for me to nap and just relax.

Hi Debra,

I can relate as well! Sleep can be a rare commodity on treatment and while I had trouble sleeping through the night, I was fortunate to be able to not work and could fit several naps during the day into my schedule. I think those naps were more of a collapsing event, but it helped nonetheless.

I'm sorry to hear about your Mom and will say a prayer for her. I hope you'll have some assistance should you have to travel to SC. You have to think about yourself too, don't forget that! I'm glad you've got your church for support, that is truly a blessing! 

You're well over halfway ! Woot!!! That's a wonderful bit of news and you should be very proud of that accomplishment and trust me, I know what an accomplishment it is. You've every right to be proud of yourself! You hang in there and rest whenever you can, even those cat naps make a difference. You're going to do this and we're here to talk anytime! Good luck...

Tig

Thanks for those positive words of encouragement. I, who is normally, Miss Encouragement Personified, is having a difficult time keeping myself looking on the bright side. I guess the fact that my mom may have pancreatic cancer and that I will most likely have to leave NYC to go to SC and care for her ...  and yada yada yada... so much going on...I had to leave school temporarily... but this to shall pass...I've learned a very valuable lesson over the course of this summer...Life has many seasons and I can't escape my season of sorrow and mourning. Just before all of this, I couldn't stop talking about the many ways that God was blessing my life. So now it's time to move to the next cycle. I feel much better now. I guess I just needed a session.LOL

believe me you're not alone!!!! i've done 2 rounds of the meds & sleep is hard to come by.

we have to bless ourselves for having lost the virus. think of it that way & you'll get the serenity you need.

sandy,ucbgal

It's 2:54am and I once again cannot fall asleep. I know that the lack of sleep is leading to my increasing irritability. I just came back from Plymouth MA, on the ocean near Cape Cod and I should be as relaxed as a bump on a log, but I am not. I broke down the other day and took some Benadryl because I was so desperate for sleep. I won't take Ambien or Lunesta because they make me crazy. Today is day 99 of 168, so I'm over the hump. I never thought /that I would be so thirsty for sleep, especially when I have plans to go to the 9:00 church service and then the 1:00 women's meeting. These outlets help me to find my center and peace. Well, I'm going to try again. I'm so grateful for this forum because it always allows me an opportunity to speak my peace.