Thank you for sharing this story with us all! I relate to what you have been through, My mom watched me get sober 21 years ago and passed away just after I was 1 yr sober. The hidden blessing is that she saw me get sober and I have been sober ever since that Labor day in 1993. The amends that you made to her were a blessing and you can thank God for that. Take the credit for doing what was needed by putting one foot in front of the other, But giving God the glory. The UND is some sweet words for us with HCV. Congrats on the news of your treatment and I myself am looking forward to hear you yell the words SVR!!
Tig said
Oct 11, 2014
Hi Debra,
Thank you for sharing your touching story with us. I'm so sorry for your loss, but as mentioned you seem to have really learned a lot about yourself and your Mom, even as you faced a serious illness, not only with her but yourself. It sounds like you've really grown spiritually and have benefitted from the support of some very good friends. I'm very happy for you and it would seem like you have a very bright and healthy future ahead for you and your daughter. She's got a pretty cool Mom and I wish you the best, good luck!
Tig
wmlj1960 said
Oct 11, 2014
thepoet wrote: I am grateful that through this whole ordeal, this woman who didn't know how to cope with life for most of her life, has learned to stand up on my own two feet. I don't take full credit for my strength, there have been many people along the way who helped me to become the person that I am now. From a crack smoking dope fiend to a college graduate who is on her way to graduate school for a master's in counseling and a woman who now knows that she can stand up to life. I no longer believe that l am too weak to handle the issues that life sends my way.
It's amazing how the sickness of a loved one, and having to look at reality of loosing them can make those long time resentments and differences seem so trivial. I was not there for my mother when she died from cancer in 94 and there's not a day that goes by that I don't regret it. I'm happy you now don't have to live with a thorn like that in your side! That teddy bear should become a reminder of a beautiful event in your life. I'm glad your almost finished with Tx. I'm on the same regimen with 12 more weeks to go and I think I can safely say that your had more than your share of Sx's as compared to me. But you made it through all the Sx crap and you should be very proud of all the progress you have made and the obstacles that you've overcome to get to this point. Just another nail in the coffin of that old idea that drunks and drug addicts are dumb, weak people. I also depend heavily on my AA friends for support and that makes dealing with life on life's terms, clean and sober, much more doable!
Congrats on finishing Tx (almost) and on all your many other accomplishments and I'll be looking forward to catching a buzz at your SVR party on 1-10-15, NO ALCOHOL / DRUGS NEEDED!
Scruffy said
Oct 11, 2014
Sorry for your loss, happy for your gain.
skewedButNotBroken said
Oct 11, 2014
Wow Debra! That gave me chill bumps when I read your post. I am so glad you made things right with your mother I do believe that HE allowed her to see you again. Simply amazing!
lilbit said
Oct 11, 2014
Awesome, awesome post. So glad you got the opportunity to make amends and heal the heart. I spent the last 9 months of my Moms life with her. She was still trying to straighten me out her last day but I treasure the time with her. You will be an inspiration to a lot of people with how far you have come. Give God the glory but take a lot of credit for yourself. Will be watching the rest of your journey and rooting you on.
Milliganus said
Oct 11, 2014
Hi the poet,
So sorry to hear of your loss but grateful you have lots of tools in your tool belt. In my journey, the things you mentioned have gotten me through many hard times. Stay strong and look forward to SVR, one day at a time!
thepoet said
Oct 11, 2014
Hey guys,
I haven't been in the forum for quite some time. My life was turned upside down. My mom got sick in SC, so I had been going back and forth from NY since May. I had to leave school and basically put my life on hold. I have since moved to SC to help care for her along with my daughter. On Sept 18, she passed away. I am so amazed at myself. My mother and I had many differences, but when the blank hit the fan, I had to be there for her. I have no brothers and sisters so I, along with my daughter had to make many tough decisions for her. The beautiful thing is that God knows what is coming around the corner before we have a clue. This year, I decided to let go of my resentments toward her. I sent her flowers and a teddy bear for her birthday and flowers for mother's day...which happened to be the day that she ended up in the hospital. During her illness, we both had the time to open our hearts to each other and make amends to one another. I am so grateful for the time we had. We sang gospel songs, she spoke of the 66 books of the Bible and smiled like I never saw her smile before. The most amazing thing is that my mother had been blind for over 25 years due to diabetes. The day before her death she kept opening her eyes like she could see. She looked me square in the eyes and I realized that her and I had not looked into each other's eyes for over 25 years. I believe that God gave her sight back before she died. What a gift that was to me.
More than anything else, during most of this time, I was suffering from Riba Rage. However, I learned not to agrllow that to beat me down. I have 7 days left on treatment of a 24 week regime of Sovaldi and Ribavirin. I am so grateful that I have made it. I lost most of my hair in the front and learned to love myself anyway. I dealt with different sides during this time...from diareah, to hemmoroids, slight rashes...headaches...weakness...tiredness, but nothing worst than the riba rage. I am grateful that through this whole ordeal, this woman who didn't know how to cope with life for most of her life, has learned to stand up on my own two feet. I don't take full credit for my strength, there have been many people along the way who helped me to become the person that I am now. From a crack smoking dope fiend to a college graduate who is on her way to graduate school for a master's in counseling and a woman who now knows that she can stand up to life. I no longer believe that l am too weak to handle the issues that life sends my way. With God, my AA, Alanon, Celebrate Recovery and church friends I can do all things that God wants me to do.
Thank you for sharing this story with us all! I relate to what you have been through, My mom watched me get sober 21 years ago and passed away just after I was 1 yr sober. The hidden blessing is that she saw me get sober and I have been sober ever since that Labor day in 1993. The amends that you made to her were a blessing and you can thank God for that. Take the credit for doing what was needed by putting one foot in front of the other, But giving God the glory. The UND is some sweet words for us with HCV. Congrats on the news of your treatment and I myself am looking forward to hear you yell the words SVR!!
Hi Debra,
Thank you for sharing your touching story with us. I'm so sorry for your loss, but as mentioned you seem to have really learned a lot about yourself and your Mom, even as you faced a serious illness, not only with her but yourself. It sounds like you've really grown spiritually and have benefitted from the support of some very good friends. I'm very happy for you and it would seem like you have a very bright and healthy future ahead for you and your daughter. She's got a pretty cool Mom and I wish you the best, good luck!
Tig
It's amazing how the sickness of a loved one, and having to look at reality of loosing them can make those long time resentments and differences seem so trivial. I was not there for my mother when she died from cancer in 94 and there's not a day that goes by that I don't regret it. I'm happy you now don't have to live with a thorn like that in your side! That teddy bear should become a reminder of a beautiful event in your life.
I'm glad your almost finished with Tx. I'm on the same regimen with 12 more weeks to go and I think I can safely say that your had more than your share of Sx's as compared to me. But you made it through all the Sx crap and you should be very proud of all the progress you have made and the obstacles that you've overcome to get to this point. Just another nail in the coffin of that old idea that drunks and drug addicts are dumb, weak people. I also depend heavily on my AA friends for support and that makes dealing with life on life's terms, clean and sober, much more doable!
Congrats on finishing Tx (almost) and on all your many other accomplishments and I'll be looking forward to catching a buzz at your SVR party on 1-10-15, NO ALCOHOL / DRUGS NEEDED!
Sorry for your loss, happy for your gain.
Wow Debra! That gave me chill bumps when I read your post. I am so glad you made things right with your mother I do believe that HE allowed her to see you again. Simply amazing!
Hi the poet,
So sorry to hear of your loss but grateful you have lots of tools in your tool belt. In my journey, the things you mentioned have gotten me through many hard times. Stay strong and look forward to SVR, one day at a time!
Hey guys,
I haven't been in the forum for quite some time. My life was turned upside down. My mom got sick in SC, so I had been going back and forth from NY since May. I had to leave school and basically put my life on hold. I have since moved to SC to help care for her along with my daughter. On Sept 18, she passed away. I am so amazed at myself. My mother and I had many differences, but when the blank hit the fan, I had to be there for her. I have no brothers and sisters so I, along with my daughter had to make many tough decisions for her. The beautiful thing is that God knows what is coming around the corner before we have a clue. This year, I decided to let go of my resentments toward her. I sent her flowers and a teddy bear for her birthday and flowers for mother's day...which happened to be the day that she ended up in the hospital. During her illness, we both had the time to open our hearts to each other and make amends to one another. I am so grateful for the time we had. We sang gospel songs, she spoke of the 66 books of the Bible and smiled like I never saw her smile before. The most amazing thing is that my mother had been blind for over 25 years due to diabetes. The day before her death she kept opening her eyes like she could see. She looked me square in the eyes and I realized that her and I had not looked into each other's eyes for over 25 years. I believe that God gave her sight back before she died. What a gift that was to me.
More than anything else, during most of this time, I was suffering from Riba Rage. However, I learned not to agrllow that to beat me down. I have 7 days left on treatment of a 24 week regime of Sovaldi and Ribavirin. I am so grateful that I have made it. I lost most of my hair in the front and learned to love myself anyway. I dealt with different sides during this time...from diareah, to hemmoroids, slight rashes...headaches...weakness...tiredness, but nothing worst than the riba rage. I am grateful that through this whole ordeal, this woman who didn't know how to cope with life for most of her life, has learned to stand up on my own two feet. I don't take full credit for my strength, there have been many people along the way who helped me to become the person that I am now. From a crack smoking dope fiend to a college graduate who is on her way to graduate school for a master's in counseling and a woman who now knows that she can stand up to life. I no longer believe that l am too weak to handle the issues that life sends my way. With God, my AA, Alanon, Celebrate Recovery and church friends I can do all things that God wants me to do.
7 more days and I pray for SVR.
Have a great day guys.