Hep C Discussion Forum

Your own mom?  I want to cry. How can people be so ****ing cruel?  I really dislike mean people. Or what's the bumper sticker? "Mean people suck." I just got screamed at again about the heat.  ...I had begun to open windows at the back end of the house  because it was just as hot outside as inside down there, which is where I spend most of my day because it is to freezing in the room that has the AC, besides I hate the garbage tv that the Mr. Is glued to all day. He just stormed off again slamming the door between the AC room and the back of the house, I told him fine whaterver I don't have the energy to  fight, and that pissed him off, all the stuff behind the door fell and he yelled at me all down the hall, I'm so triggered to respond but am trying to get past that. It's one of the reasons I was absent so much. I have spent  a ton of time in counseling and domestic violence groups, Al anon. Little helps and I was frequently suicidal over these outbursts. With the hep always looming, the "what the hell is the point" hovered me constantly. I have only recently gained the support of my mother but not to the degree that she would have the mr. evicted from her house. (She owns the house we live in) I didn't have that early on when things were even worse. Mom had told me flat out to never come home with a baby. Her and my dad were always telling me to work things out, ya right, they had no clue and I didn't either then. Thought keeping the family together at all costs was the thing to do. Little did I know 30 whatever years later I would be a shredded shell of a woman. I'm hoping this treatment will give me the energy I need to move forward. I was always so sick I could never work more than part time. The holidays at the flower shop would require about a week or more of recoup. Grrrr. I'm so sad right now Im thinking I will have to do the course of these meds somewhere that I can relax. One place is moms, another is a friend who lives about a half hour away. But I may not have mentioned I also have a cat (the last one) who is needing subcutaneous fluids twice a week which my daughter comes to help with. I fear this cat won't survive the summer (shes 16)  and I really don't want to leave her and I can't bring her to either of these places.

I'm just not in a good place tonight and I was really tired today, drank more water and napped a bit.

Iris

Oh dang Scruffy that sucks. I'm sorry you had to deal with that. They do wear you down, I'm to the point I have to not care, not react and not think that they will ever hear ANYONE, it's just so sad. You want to hate them and maybe we do, they have just caused so much Friggin damage and they are never accountable. It's disgusting. 

My brother was such an ass, that he made a scene at the Lawyers office and was asked to leave. AAaaaaand it's my fault and the lawyers fault and my moms fault .criminy maybe I should go to rants. But these meds seem to unravel me a bit. I'm pretty pissed off at him and husband who just threw a block of ice because I said it was as hot outside as inside (the kitchen it's blocked off from the cooled room) (I was just getting home with ice cream and popsicles) Then he called me a **** because heeeeeee knows better the temp and I know nothing. The baby went and stormed off...and good riddance, rather not see he narcissistic mug anyway.

But back to my neck and throat. It's hurting again, pretty sure it's stress related rather than the meds but it all came on after the first pill. Could be psychosomatic. The throat may have to do with not drinking enuf water, I'm really trying though definitely consuming more that I ever have in my life. I wonder if the virus is sluffing off in my tonsils, today it is bugging me again. But like I said it's been a stressful day, am relaxing in front of the fan drinking waster having ice cream for dinner, then I'm going to a meeting...They are very helpful and it will be good to go sit in central AC.

Blessings

most stores carry some kind of ant houses. raid is the one i have, but most are good....... they come  4 in a box and you can use the sticky pad that comes with them to put them on the side of a wall or on the floor.

the ants eat the stuff and take it home to feed the rest of the colony......better than trying to kill them all as the invade. of course that is good to get rid of an invasion at the moment

if you use the bait outside too that helps to keep them from coming in the house. i have them all over now

i'm so glad you can get away to your moms house...sounds like a nice get away

hi iris, 

ants, i had that last year. i put those little plastic ant houses in various locations and it really works. My mr drops his crumbs here and there too. but those little raid ones you can stick next to fridge in the bathrooms etc really do help.

and i have lots of crazy ppl at work too

i like tig's idea of having a treatment retreat for the durations..... water everywhere

true dat tho, the water and the rest are a must.

put the ant traps up, grab your water and put your feet up..... and next road trip make sure the water jugs and snacks are loaded. can you stay the nite at mom's if you need to make this trip again? with ant traps up you'll come back to fewer ants too.

i use lots of ice and heat on my back ,neck and arms...i have rhumatoid arthritis and yea, it got more squeaky on tx on some days....

i'm so glad you are taking the treatment and getting thru it somehow even under less than ideal conditions.

lots of ppl came together to make sure we got cured.... we are that special, we deserve it

hang in there iris, this too shall pass and you will look back and think "wow, i did that!"

I have my own seat belt! I am already buckled up Tig - hurry with the equipment eh, we got people waitin'.  C.

I could talk to the Mr. till I'm blue in the face he couldn't care less about me. Let alone lift a finger to help, oh I take it back he feeds the cat makes coffee and waters like a crazy person... I'm mostly on my own here. That was a great concern to do this even. I have no support really, daughter is not always readily available. To top it off we had an ant invasion while I was gone, spent most the morning cleaning them up. Because Mr. %$#@! continues to leave stuff out that they will swarm to. It's miserable. My mother is elderly and needs my help right now, the timing isn't good. She has to stay with us for a couple days while she sees a lawyer. I may have to drive her back, Bro is flaking too. 

On the upside, my neck isn't as sore today and my sore throat is gone.

Iris

Well it's bearable, just super stiff when I turn my head, and I have always gotten a sore throat and extra tired and achy when I over due things or am under lots of stress, it is like catching the flu but I don't get sick. I always attributed that feeling to the hep.

Maybe it's the fibromyalgia or complications from Epstein-Barr. I never know. Also I do not tolerate heat well and as most of the nation we broke heat records in my town over the weekend.

Daughter and I went to the lavender festival but were only there for lonly ike 2 hours (in the early am) and I was done. Like well done, lol ! Felt pretty crummy the rest of the day, and probably didn't drink enuf water. My chalice is at home, I've had to come pick up my mother to bring her to the lawyer. About a 400 mile round trip. Daughter came along, weve been here all weekend, we leave in the am to go back to the Valley. My bro will take Mom back home after her appt. 

I feel like I'm not making sense, that has become an issue too.